Weighing in at 173.5 -175.5 is a total dream to me; 3 years ago, and now it is a reality, I haven't weighed that weight probably since grade 9. I started my journey weighing in at 230+ pounds. Didn't work out at all, ate whatever I wanted and did not think twice. I was extremely unhealthy, overweight, always feeling very lethargic and thought I wasn't worth anything nor to be truly happy.
After going to the doctor that March 2013 and them telling me how much I actually truly weighed and what effects was being caused to my body was a major reality check for me, brutally letting me know that I was killing myself slowly by living the unhealthy life that I lived. I was finally able to see and understand exactly what I was doing to my body and how I was pretty much harming it not only long term but always short term. I wasn't confident in myself. I was embarrassed with myself. I wasted a lot of my life in my house/room because of my weight, didn't experience a lot of things I wanted to experience because of my weight, I may be a hypocrite for saying this but never allow yourself to feel you aren't worthy of doing what any other person can do just because you have a few extra pounds on you.
I have only been going to the gym for just over a year now, before that I did all my workouts at home and outside, I went for a lot of walks - I've never been a runner. The workout videos on YouTube is what got me through a year and a half of my weight loss journey and I will forever be thankful to the people who put out workout videos because without them I wouldn't know where I would be right now. January 2015 is when I signed up at the gym where I started to go to with my boyfriend Andrew, he taught me a lot, he showed me almost everything I know in the gym and has shown me throughout my journey that I can do it and I am much strong than I mentally think I am and that I am worth so much more than I think I am, this may be cliché but without him in my life helping and pushing me through the hard times of my journey –it may not be the same results as it is now.
Throughout my whole weight loss/fitness journey, if I didn't see the results I thought I would get, I would be so hard on myself and think of giving up – but I pushed not only because I wanted it and the family and friend I had to support throughout but also I truly wanted to show everyone who has ever called me fat or ugly over the years that “fuck you, I did it. I'm beautiful and fit.” Never allow ignorant people bring you down, you will always come up on top and be looking down on them.
Yes, I could be a lot skinnier. Yes, I could be a lot fitter. Could I be any happier with the result I have made for myself? No. Could I push harder? Yes. But with pushing harder there are steps, and let me tell you I'm climbing those steps! Could I eat a lot healthier? Yes, of course, everyone could. I have changed my eating habits drastically over the years, and I am proud of that. There are many things I could have done or I could be doing to make my results better or better in someone else's eyes but you know what, I sure am proud of my accomplishments and have no regrets about how I did things during my journey.
This year, I have set new goals and new accomplishments. Wanting to lose my last 10 pounds and gain strength and muscle definition will be my main goals. follow me while I push through another step of my fitness journey.
Last but not least, my before picture (March 2013) and my after (or during) picture (March 2016)...
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